The Civil Wars - Dust to Dust

be careful, maybe you're not just who you are

you're only in disguise to claim that you're perfect

no, you're just a dust

that fly away where the wind blows

you're just being lonely, too long

so lonely too long

Surrounded by the Winter

The shadow was too clear to be seen

Reflected on the frozen water

The sky was too dark to be gazed

Stood above a sinned creature

Ashen haze covered the lonely soul

Tortured it with an annual mourning

of the continuous suffering 

Cumulus were too tough to be penetrated

Exhaled the coldest wind

Frost of the heat spirit which newly arose

The whisper of the shadow 

kept whiling of the emptiness 

Frighten hope that was just woken

Is this another falsity from the ancient feeling?

See of  the reflection of the soul and mind

They are surrounded by the coldness of winter

This chill, none will never know when it comes to the end

The fake whisper keep blowing in mind

When does the light come to melt this frost?

Starlight, moonlight, sunlight....

Do they come to end this suffering?

Do they come to end this winter?

Or will one of them do this?

Yes, one will...

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star

Glowing in the sky

Let it shines

Although the darkness' still covering

Let me see your sparkle

And make my wish flies to you

High upon the sky

But please,

don't ever let me fall

to crash into the ground

Allow me to steal your beauty

and keep your light inside my dark soul

Till you shine with your brightest light

Warm the coldness of my heart

And melt down the ice of my soul

Oh, twinkle twinkle little star

Please,

Would you give me your shine?

Would you keep shining on me?

and accompany the loneliness of myself,

accompany me to walk along the road of this life

till the end of time

Hey, twinkle twinkle little star,

I just want to ask you

where are you now?

the brightest one and the most beautiful one,

Although I know

that you're still standing above the sky

and do waiting for our meeting

Please, keep shining on me

Kisah di Ujung Harapan yang Kelam

Sebenarnya ini puisi dibuat untuk dibacakan pas acara Sehari Bersama Perempuan 2011 dengan judul acara "TKW-ku Sayang, TKW-ku Malang: Antara Pahlawan Devisa atau Korban Komoditas" hanya saja karena beberapa hal akhirnya puisi ini tidak jadi untuk dibacakan dan diganti dengan puisi lainnya yang juga aku buat (karena jobdesc sbg divisi acara, hehe). Tapi karena terlanjur suka dan baitnya yang berima, makanya aku ingin repost lagi di blog yg ini, hehe.... 

Kisah di Ujung Harapan yang Kelam

oleh Arvibie

Setapak jalan terbentang di ujung raga
Sekilas cahaya terbesit depan mata
Mengarungi samudera; terbangkan sayap
Berjalan telusuri secercah harap

Namun cahaya lenyap tertutup bayangan
Menyelimuti kalbu tenggelam bersama harapan
Menghempas raga yang terhanyut dalam arus
Membawa kenangan yang semakin tergerus

Waktu berjalan layaknya sungai mengalir
Tetes air mata jatuh berbulir-bulir
Badai tak reda petir pun menyambar
Mengoyak luka hitam yang terbakar

Jiwa melayang; harapan sirna
Terbalut dalam luka penuh hina
Tangisan bercucuran penuh darah
Senandung perih yang tak pernah lelah

Andai kilauan cahaya itu menyala terang
Bersinar tuk menggapai kasih sayang
Bayang hitam tak mungkin menyelimuti
Menepis luka-luka di dalam hati


*dipersembahkan untuk para TKW yg ada di seberang sana
hidup adalah perjuangan, namun perjuangan itu akan bermakna
ketika sang cahaya kembali bersinar di muka bumi ini
ya, cahaya itu adalah Islam

when will our tears stop?

Cry with The Wind

Darkness covers the air

Feel the pain tightens heart beat

Cold dusk sticks under the skin

Froze every grains of blood

Stiff like an iron

Every move seems difficult to move

Wind blows spreading its chill

Wish it takes away the grief of my soul

Let the droplets of tears down

Freeze every treacle into crystal

Like the falling of the snow

So lonely

So cold

So painful

Will you keep me trapped into this? Or let me die?

No choice I could choose

Let me cry with the wind

Brought every breath into deepest gloom

With the loneliness of self

Walking in the Sky

One day,

I saw a boy; he was standing there, alone…

But then, he drew something with hand

Neither pencil nor crayon

He drew something in the air

With his mind pen

His hand moved and moved higher

I thought that he was crazy…

Then, he smiled like he saw something in his eyes

His hand still moved till he couldn’t reach anymore

But then he smiled again

He started to step

Like he was stepping on the ladder

An imaginative ladder

But I couldn’t see that ladder…

Then, I saw his feet didn’t step on the ground anymore

He stepped up, higher and higher…

I saw him amazingly,

I rubbed my eyes; saw something that I never imagined

It was like a dream, I kept watching on him

He kept walking and he kept drawing more staircases

Where he was stepping into

The highest of the sky

I was still looking at him; he was so small far from my sight

He stepped on the clouds, walking

Now he was running without hesitate

Felt there was nothing only him

I could hear his bright laugh

Now, I was tried to draw

Drew something that my eyes can’t see

But beyond my eyes can see

My imaginative ladder

Then I could reach my dream

Into the highest sky of my imagination

*was created in 2008

Guide My Way

Please....
make my way straight to You
although there are many stones head off
Please....
make my heart straight to You
although there are many feelings crossed
and please....
make my eyes only cry for You
shed the tears down
soften the hard feelings
and break the stone of heart
lighten the dark shadow
strengthen the weak soul
and burn the dried spirit
Let You guide my way
in every step I make
in every breath I take
in every time I pass
till someday I'll fell down on my step
I'll stop to breath
and the time then will take me to another life
please....
don't ever let me go from Your side

Meaningless Writing

I know that every person have their own way 

to look, speak, write, read

And so do I

I have my own style to write 

just like what I’ve been writing in this blog

Different from others?

Yes…

Maybe, I’m still not a good writer 

Especially for something amazing like ISLAM

But I will always try and try

sometimes,

I write for something useless

However, I still learn

yes, I’m just a human

Weak and limited

I still keep standing for this, 

to make me better and better

I’ll never give up

I promise this to myself

Feelings

Mixed feelings now are in me. My feeling shows everything. 
Happy, sad, bored, love, confuse, annoyed, funny, angry, and other which are too much to be said.
Feels that it will have no end. But this is life, living in the moment to be like this, living my life.
Not like the straight road, but just like passing through the mountain.
Wherever I'm going, I will always have all these feelings.
But I'm trying to enjoy as the world is on my hand.
I just want to say that I'm lucky.
Because this life is remarkable and  the after is more remarkable.
And the world as I see it is remarkable.
Because the world is Yours, and so I'm.
But I won't give up. Whether all these feelings appear.
And even the skies get rough.
I'm giving all my life and my love.
I won't give up.
Because I'm lucky and I'm Yours.

Jalan Setapak Menuju Cahaya

Aku berjalan menapaki tanah kering

Aku menyeberangi jembatan  di atas derasnya sungai

Perjalanan ini masih jauh untuk kucapai

Meskipun begitu,

Aku tak pernah merasakan lelah

Biarlah rasa lelah itu melayang ketika kutiba disana

Di sebuah tempat dimana akan kugapai harapanku

Kuraih impian kecilku

Aku harus terus berjalan

meskipun kuharus lewati badai

Terjangan ombak

Derasnya sungai

Sambaran petir

Kuharus tetap berjalan

Meskipun jembatan itu roboh

Gedung itu ambruk

Tapi…

Aku tak bisa selamanya seperti ini

Kami tak bisa hidup selamanya seperti ini

Dimanakah mereka??

Yang katanya akan menjamin kesejahteraan pada kami

Yang katanya akan memberikan kami cita-cita tinggi itu

Tapi, mereka dusta!!!

Aku tak percaya lagi pada mereka

Aku hanya berharap pada secercah cahaya kehidupan abadi

Yang akan menerangi langit dan bumi dan seluruh alam semesta

Karena ku percaya

Cahaya itu berasal dari-Nya

Cahaya yang akan menerangi seluruh dunia

Karena itu kuyakin

Akan kukejar ilmu sejati

Tuk aku raih cahaya Illahi

Sehingga…

Cahaya itu dapat kembali menyinari dunia ini

*untuk pejuang-pejuang kecil yang tangguh di negeri ini ketika sistem pendidikan negeri ini tak lagi dapat menjadi harapan bagi masa depan, hanya cahaya Islam yang dapat mengantarkan pada masa depan yang lebih baik

To The Eternal Dream

When people are seeking for their world dreams, 

I take another dream for my eternal dream

When people are having fun with their world, 

I take another thing to do for the real struggle

I know this way; I really know this path I take

I remember when first I should decide

I was afraid, confuse, even I felt so hard

Yes, of course

This path is not an easy path

To get the eternal dream is not an easy way to do

Everything is a struggle

To see the people around me is a challenge

Between the happiness and the struggle

Then, I can make the differences between them

So I decided to choose the struggle at first 

Then it will lead me to the happiness at the end

I know this path

I make my own will to this path

I am who ask for this path

For now, I walk away

Still walk away, and keep walk away on this path

Don’t care if storm will make me down

But I should keep walk away

To stand myself on this road

To open the eternal door

To the real happiness

Rangkaian Kata

Beginilah ketika hati tak bisa berbicara

Hanya air mata yang berurai ketika hati tersayat

Namun bukan itu yang kali ini kurasakan

Jari jemari ini bergerak menuntun untaian kata

Meskipun kadang tidak sesuai harmoni

Mendengar alunan simfoni

Tergerak hati ini tuk merangkai kata

Namun ku tak tahu apa yang harus terindra

Membiarkan jari, hati, dan pikiran bersatu

Berkolaborasi membentuk tim yang solid

Dalam sebuah puisi kecil ini

Meskipun tak bermakna

Namun hasrat ini telah terpenuhi

Hati Bisu

Kadang rasa ini tak dapat diungkap, tak dapat pula ditahan

Namun sering kali ku bingung tuk membiarkan perasaan ini

Tulisan saja yang bisa kugunakan tuk melepasnya

Kadang yang tertulis tidak sesuai dengan hati ini

Namun memang begitulah

Tulisan ini hanyalah perwakilan dari hati yang bisu

To The Underworld

Every step I take

Feels like I passing through to the tomb

Trapped in the darkness

Cover with its beautiful deceit

Takes me to the deepest underworld

Not let me go out from its amazing fantasy

Fixated by its fake fragrant

Cradles me to sleep on the utopian bed

Decorated by the rainbow of the dream

Restrain myself to always stay in virtual world

Then I fell in the deepest of ravine

Make me crawling on the sharp cliff

I cry myself alone all day

Regretting myself

But,

I come back to take my steps on the stabbed gravel

Deceived by the beauty of the shadow

Tempted by dainty whisper

Let the pain rips my heart

Now,

I try to climb this high cliff of the underworld

Let me out to seek the light of truth

Find the real
Bring me to the endless happiness of life
Before it’s too late

Let me go home....

I walked along this path alone, under the rain of the dark clouds…I was alone with the umbrella in my left hand…I couldn’t wait till the rain stopped, so I just walk away till I reached home…

But it was downpour…many people run and run seeking place for them to take shelter, but I still walked and walked….

I didn’t care what would happen to me…I knew my blouse was wet like it was drowned to the river, but I didn’t really care….

I could feel the cold stabbed to my skin…

But what I wanted now was just getting home soon…

I saw them at the warm café laughing and drinking a cup of coffee with their friends…Made me want to feel the warm atmosphere like them…

But I remembered myself; I just wanted to go home….

In front of me there was just a wet muddy road, my fabric shoes was like an odd muddy trash….

I tried to run and run to reach home soon…Splashed the water that I stepped into…

I saw that warm light in front of my eyes…It was my home…my beloved home…

I knocked the door at the moment…Smiling beautiful face accosted me suddenly…

This I was belong to…to the place I belong...