Rangkaian Kata

10/31/2011 06:24:00 AM 0 Comments A+ a-



Beginilah ketika hati tak bisa berbicara
Hanya air mata yang berurai ketika hati tersayat
Namun bukan itu yang kali ini kurasakan
Jari jemari ini bergerak menuntun untaian kata
Meskipun kadang tidak sesuai harmoni
Mendengar alunan simfoni
Tergerak hati ini tuk merangkai kata
Namun ku tak tahu apa yang harus terindra
Membiarkan jari, hati, dan pikiran bersatu
Berkolaborasi membentuk tim yang solid
Dalam sebuah puisi kecil ini
Meskipun tak bermakna
Namun hasrat ini telah terpenuhi

Hati Bisu

10/31/2011 06:11:00 AM 0 Comments A+ a-



Kadang rasa ini tak dapat diungkap, tak dapat pula ditahan
Namun sering kali ku bingung tuk membiarkan perasaan ini
Tulisan saja yang bisa kugunakan tuk melepasnya
Kadang yang tertulis tidak sesuai dengan hati ini
Namun memang begitulah
Tulisan ini hanyalah perwakilan dari hati yang bisu


To The Underworld

9/15/2011 08:01:00 PM 1 Comments A+ a-

Every step I take
Feels like I passing through to the tomb
Trapped in the darkness
Cover with its beautiful deceit
Takes me to the deepest underworld
Not let me go out from its amazing fantasy
Fixated by its fake fragrant
Cradles me to sleep on the utopian bed
Decorated by the rainbow of the dream
Restrain myself to always stay in virtual world
Then I fell in the deepest of ravine
Make me crawling on the sharp cliff
I cry myself alone all day
Regretting myself
But,
I come back to take my steps on the stabbed gravel
Deceived by the beauty of the shadow
Tempted by dainty whisper
Let the pain rips my heart
Now,
I try to climb this high cliff of the underworld
Let me out to seek the light of truth
Find the real
Bring me to the endless happiness of life
Before it’s too late


The Vampire and Mortal Nature in Louis’ Character in Anna Rice's Interview with the Vampire

7/17/2011 06:15:00 PM 0 Comments A+ a-

I.    Introduction

I.1 Background
   In this paper, I’m going to talk about the vampire nature or the vampire characteristic in Anne Rice’ Interview with the Vampire. This topic is attracted to me because the vampire, as a fantastical creature, appear as the characters in Rice’ novel.  Especially, the character of Louis who makes me feel respect to vampire character. The vampire instincts which are in Louis’, actually, are quite different from other vampires which appear in the novel, for example Lestat. Louis still has morality of being vampire. He still has human nature inside, he also the religious one. But Louis vampire nature also appears in contrast with the mortal nature. That’s why Louis character is different from other vampire. In my previous reflection, I’d told that I like the character of Louis, who was actually feminine character in the novel. For those reason, I take this topic for my final assignment.

I.2. History of Vampire
According to Encarta, Vampire, in folklore, a corpse that rises from the grave during the night, often in the form of a bat, and, for nourishment, sucks the blood of sleeping humans. [1] The word Vampire first appeared in English from 1734, in a travelogue titled Travels of Three English Gentlemen published in the Harleian Miscellany in 1745.  Vampires are mythological or folkloric beings who subsist by feeding on the life essence (generally in the form of blood) of living creatures, regardless of whether they are undead or a living person.[2]  Horst, Schriften and Hypothesen about Vampire, (Zauberbibliothek, III) defines a Vampire as “a dead body which continues to live in the grave; which it leaves, however, by night, for the purpose of sucking blood of the living, whereby it is nourished and preserved in good condition, instead of becoming decomposed like other dead bodies.”[3] It means that vampire is a mythological creature which has special gifts of being vampire doesn’t same as other dead bodies which uncanny like zombie.
Many writers have their own definition and imagination about vampire. Among of them also have different characteristic, life, and instinct of vampire being. In some cultures also have the different histories and forms of vampire. As what Wikipedia said, vampire is a mythological being, so it has different culture in some countries which have mythological story of vampire. But generally, vampire beings in the whole world have similar description, they are the blood sucker, whether human or animal blood, live immortality, afraid of sunlight, out and hunting at night, has pale skin, and many more.

I.3. Vampire Characteristic
In Anne Rice’s Interview with the Vampire, Rice describes her vampires’ characters in various.  However, she includes gender identity to her vampires’ character. For example, Louis is the feminine character and Lestat is the masculine one. It‘s illustrated from the description of the character. Lestat has much power than Louis, because he’s the one who made Louis to be vampire. Also with Rice’s, other fantastic and gothic writers has own description about their vampire being, characteristic, and physicality. In this below, I want to show some mental and physicality which have been categorized generally.
Physical characteristics:
·         Pale skin
·         Sensitivity to sunlight physically (i.e., sunburn easily) and/or visually
·         Visual sensitivity to any light source
·         Better night vision than day vision
·         Eye color changing with mood or for no apparent reason
·         Heightened senses
·         Unaccounted-for strength (i.e., stronger than one should be without working   out) and quick reflexes
·         Often feels hungry and/or thirsty despite an adequate food diet
·         Extreme cravings for certain types of food or extreme cravings that can not be satisfied with food
·         Often feel run down, fatigued, tired despite an adequate food diet and activity level
·         Frequent headaches for no apparent reason
·         Does not require very much sleep
·         Able to heal quicker than others
Mental characteristics:
·         Strong-willed; independent nature; confident
·         Intellectual/highly intelligent
·         Well-learned/educated, although not necessarily school-educated
·         Predatory nature
·         Dark nature
·         Prefers nighttime over daytime; i.e., nocturnal nature
·         Moodiness/mood swings/quick-tempered
·         Mental and/or personality disorders (diagnosed by a medical doctor)
Psychic abilities and metaphysical characteristics:
·         Empathy
·         Telepathy
·         Mind reading
·         See and read auras
·         Extra-sensory perception (ESP)
·         Clairaudience, being able to mentally hear things from a distance
·         Clairvoyance, being able to mentally see things from a distance
·         Clairsentience, having knowledge that one can not explain
·         Audiovoyance, being able to see and/or hear spirits and possibly communicate with them
·         Telekinesis
·         Pyrokinesis
·         Astral travel/astral projection
·         Psychometry
·         Invisibility, although not as in the Invisible Man kind of invisibility; the kind of invisibility where one can blend into a setting, room and/or crowd, and not be noticed by anyone looking for them.
·         Precognition/visions
·         Past-life memories, especially vampiric past-life memories
·         Immortal soul and a belief in reincarnation
·         Experience déjà vu quite frequently
·         Able to sense other vampires (often referred to as "vamp radar")
·         Involved in "alternative" religions (such as pagan, Wiccan, satanic, etc.) or have "alternative" spiritual beliefs
·         Most are either born vampires or experience an awakening to their vampiric nature later in life, usually in their teen years but it can happen later in life
(http://vampiresarereal.tripod.com/id7.html accessed on Tuesday, December 28th 2010: 23.01)  
Anne Rice describes her vampires’ unique characteristic, mental, and also physicality. Not all of the above mentioned, including in Rice’s vampires. She just adds some specialties in her vampires such as empathy, past-life memories and so on as mortal nature which appears in some vampires. In my opinion, vampire nature is the gift for vampire being to exist or to survive in the world. Vampire nature is similar with vampire instincts, physic, and mental.  In this paper, I make a restriction for the characteristics in Interview with the Vampire for the vampire nature and also mortal nature in Louis’ character.

II.   Discussion
The vampire was utterly white and smooth, as if he were sculpted from bleached bone, and his face was as seemingly inanimate as a statue, except for two brilliant green eyes that looked down at the boy intently like flames in a skull. But then the vampire smiled almost wistfully, and the smooth white substance of his face moved with the infinitely flexible but minimal lines of a cartoon.[4]
  
       The paragraph above shows the description of vampire Louis. Rice describes his vampire physicality as pale-skinned, brilliant-eyed, but also the expression of wistful appeared on his face. Vampire is an elegant fantastical creature which has long long life or as immortal creature. Vampire is a living corpse which in his face describes like inanimate statue it implies the experiences of his life through the lines of his furrow face. His brilliant green eyes make him more elegant as fantastical creature. Rice places the description of his main character vampire in the beginning of the book. It makes the readers easily to imagine of vampire Louis. Vampire Louis’ characteristic, actually, doesn’t appear yet in the beginning of the book. But we may find more about Louis’ in the style of his conversation with the boy.
       I also include Louis’ religiousness in this discussion, since Louis is a vampire. He can’t easily let his mortal life. His mortal characteristic influenced his immortal life so much, that’s why he is different with other vampires.
              
       I was Catholic; I believed in saints. I lit tapers before their marble statues in churches; I knew their pictures, their symbols, their names. (p11)

       In those sentences, Louis described as a religious before becoming vampire. Because of his religiousness, it affected on his vampire life. How he feels still as a mortal, who couldn’t kill human and drink human blood. Those also will indicate that vampire isn’t afraid with the symbol of Catholic. In the interview with the boy, Louis tells of his vampire nature:
               Oh, the rumor about crosses!” the vampire laughed. “You refer to our being afraid of crosses?”
               “Unable to look on them, I thought,” said the boy.
“Nonsense, my friend, sheer nonsense. I can look on anything I like. And I rather like looking on crucifixes in particular.”
               “The story about stakes through the heart,” said the boy, his cheeks coloring slightly.
               “The same,” said the vampire, “Bull-shit,” he said, carefully articulating both syllables, so that the boy
smiled. (p27)

From the conversations above, we may assume that the vampires in Anne Rice’s book aren’t afraid to the Catholic symbols, because Rice makes her character religious. So, it doesn’t make sense if the vampire is religious, but he is afraid of Catholic symbols like cross. Another Louis’ religiousness is also appeared in the middle of the book after Lestat being killed by Claudia.

“I was sitting still in the Saturday night cathedral… I looked up now and saw a gray-haired priest. ‘You wish to go to confession?’ he asked. ‘I was about to lock up the church.’
“And then I said it, lifting my hand to make the Sign of the Cross. ‘Bless me, father, for I have sinned, sinned so often and so long I do not know how to change, nor how to confess before God what I’ve done’ (p160-161)

In this part, Louis came to the church to calm down himself after Lestat being killed. His mortal
and immortal mental appeared. He actually believed and disbelieved in God. In next text, he showed his experience of asking about God’s existence (p 162). After that, his vampire nature, his killer instinct appeared:

“… And then I grabbed him on the very steps to Communion rail and pulled him down to face me there and sank my teeth into his neck.” (p162)

Louis’ emotion had made his vampire killing instinct rises, and then he killed the priest without
thinking twice. It’s natural in vampire beings, when vampire gets emotional, his vampire nature will appear soon. Especially, his body was much closed with his victim. His killer instinct arises when he needs feeding.The vampire nature which is in Louis also arose when Louis found Claudia alone in a house beside a dead body.
“I had bent down and driven hard into her soft, small neck and hearing her tiny cry, whispered even as I felt the hot blood on my lips… For four years I had not savored a human; for four years I hadn’t really known; and now I heard her heart of in that terrible rhythm, and such a heart – not the heart of a man and an animal, but the rapid, tenacious hart, of the child, beating harder and harder, refusing to die, beating like tiny fists boating on a door, crying,… I think I rose to my feet still locked to her, the heart pulling my heart faster with no hope of cease, the rich blood rushing so fast for me….” (p83)

Even though, Louis tried not to drink a human blood, but he couldn’t keep himself from his
vampire instinct. The vampire could feel the human bloodstream flow swiftly inside the human body.
“You must understand that by now I was burning with physical need to drink. I could not have made it through another day without feeding. But there were two alternatives: rat abounded in the streets and somewhere very near a dog was howling hopelessly” (p82)
However, Louis had two alternatives in feeding, drink rats’ blood or dog. It means he drank
animal blood which is less satisfaction for a vampire. But he had explained :

“That the death of an animal yielded such pleasure and experience to me that I only begun to understand it, and wished to save the experience of human death for my mature understanding. “(p80)

       Different from Louis, Lestat who made Louis, he had his own lifestyle to be vampire. Lestat is the teacher for Louis, that’s why Louis can’t escape from him, because Louis needs him. Louis was afraid if he didn’t know essential secrets as vampire which Lestat might know (p71). Louis wanted to escape from Lestat, he also thought that he might wish for die (p79). Because for Louis, killing an animal is such a pleasure rather than killing a human. His mortal is still showed in his vampire nature. That’s why, Lestat who taught him killing was mad of Louis.

“’Louis! You are in love with your mortal nature! You chase after the phantoms of your former self… And in your romance with mortal life, you’re dead to your vampire nature!’ (p90)
              Kill them swiftly if you will but do it! Learn that you’re a killer!’ (p93)
‘When I gave you that first kill, I thought you would hunger for the next and the next, that you would go to each human life as if it to a full cup, the way I had. But you didn’t. And all this time I suppose I kept from straightening you out because you were best weaker… But you’re weak, Louis. You’re a mark. For vampires and now for humans alike.’” (p94)
                 
  Those are few words from Lestat that being mad of Louis mortal nature. Because, Lestat took Louis to be his companion was for being strong vampire companion. But Louis didn’t become for what Lestat wished for. Although at first, Louis wanted to be free from Lestat, actually he needed him especially after Lestat being killed by Claudia. This Louis’ longing of Lestat might appear as both mortal nature and vampire nature which is longing for companion.
                  
“I wanted to forget him, yet it seemed I thought of him always. It was as if the empty nights were made for thinking of him. I found myself so vividly aware of him it was as if he had only just left the room and the ring of his voice were still there… I wanted him alive! In the dark nights of eastern Europe, Lestat was the only vampire I’d found.” (p213)

       Another Louis mortal nature appears when he was in Theatre des Vampires. Louis came with Claudia after being invited by a vampire. He saw a girl in theater which was actually a human surrounded by vampires, but it seemed like true theater. Louis could feel the girl pain in the stage who was killed by the vampires.
                  
       “I felt my spirit contract in fear for her, and in longing. Her beauty was heartbreaking” (p237)
“I could hardly bear it, the sight of her yearning towards him, seeing her dying now, under the vampire’s power. I wanted to cry out to her, to break her swoon. And I wanted her.” (p238)
“I felt weak, dazed, hunger rising in me, knotting my heart, my veins.” (p238)

Louis could feel the girl suffered at the stage, he wanted to help her, but he couldn’t. His
empathy for the girl couldn’t be explained as mortal nature. But he also could feel her blood which rising his hunger as vampire nature. When his mortal nature appears, his vampire nature also appears, in which he can feel the blood veins from the girl, although he also feel sad about the girl.

III.    Conclusion
Vampire is a mythological creature which has many specification in its characteristic.
Generally, vampire drinks blood whether human or animal blood. Vampire describes has pale skin, exotic eyes, cold body temperatur, dark creature, and many more. In many countries, vampire has own specification which different among the cultures.
In Anne Rice’s Interview with the Vampire, she also has own specification about vampire which
she describes it in her gothic novels. She also has different way how to make human become vampire. This novel is an introduction of vampire; she makes her unique vampires characters which she describes in the protagonist character, Louis.
Louis has two natural characters, mortal nature and vampire nature. Mortal nature affects Louis life after becoming a vampire. Mortal nature is one of Louis characters before becoming a vampire. Louis who is religious affects on his vampire nature. Mortal nature can’t be separated from Louis because it affects him how to be a different vampire among the others. Louis’ also has different vampire nature which has explained above especially with his companion, Lestat. Louis and Lestat are very different in character. Louis’ vampire nature is not strong as Lestat. Louis drinks from animal blood, because he is hate to kill human every time. Different with Louis, Lestat enjoys himself as vampire with his own lifestyle and culture of killing. Lestat who made Louis, can’t stand for Louis’ mortal nature that makes Louis becomes weak vampire.  
Louis’ mortal nature makes him become a altruistical vampire, a weak vampire, and religious vampire. His belief in God confused him when he can’t stand any longer to kill human. However, his religiousness makes him seem confused about the existence of God. On the other hand, his vampire nature appears as he can’t be elusory of human blood, like he’s done to the priest and Claudia. His mortal and vampire nature are important to him to exist in the world. However, mortal nature doesn’t always in contrast with vampire nature. They also appear with the same way, as Louis feel longing of Lestat. His mortal nature goes along his vampire nature. It is fact that Louis is longing for Lestat is a mortal nature, and on the other side that he is need companion in his life is a vampire nature, since Lestat is the one who made him. So, I think, every vampire has own mortal nature beside its vampire nature, since they are previously human beings, they will have mortal nature beside their vampire nature.

References:
Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire (London: Warner Books, 1976).
Vampire." Microsoft® Encarta® 2009 [DVD]. Redmond, WA: Microsoft Corporation, 2008.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vampire (accessed on Tuesday, December, 28 2010, 22.16)
Summers, M. U. http books google com books id fpaCCyGuMqwC. The Vampire, His Kith and Kin. University Books, 1960.
http://vampiresarereal.tripod.com/id7.html (accessed on Tuesday, December 28th 2010: 23.01)

[1] Vampire." Microsoft® Encarta® 2009 [DVD]. Redmond, WA: Microsoft Corporation, 2008.
[2] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vampire (accessed on Tuesday, December, 28 2010, 22.16)
[3] Summers, M. U. http books google com books id fpaCCyGuMqwC. The Vampire, His Kith and Kin. University Books, 1960.
[4] Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire (London: Warner Books, 1976).p6

GOTHIC NOVELS – Kay J. Mussel

7/17/2011 06:07:00 PM 0 Comments A+ a-


The gothic novel had its greatest general popularity in a relatively brief period of literary history, the end of the eighteenth and the beginning of nineteenth centuries. It was originally an English literary form. The influence of the gothic in fiction, however, has been much more significant than its relatively short period of great popularity would indicate. The audience for the gothic novel, from the works of Ann Radcliffe in eighteenth-century England to those of Phyllis Whitney in twentieth-century America, is primaly female. Women are attracted to gothic novels by the combination of romance and terror, a blend that has remained relatively constant over the past two hundred years.

The gothic novel is fiction with a characteristic world view supported by a particular set of conventions, It consists of a story set in a remote place or a remote time in which a usually impropable and terrifying mystery is completely interwined with a successful love story. Gothic novels do not provide a logical solution to the mystery; to the contrary, the mystery and the love story are so coincidentally interconnected that it is virtually impossible to separate them. The novels depend upon a setting in which the social structure is hierarchical; the conventions of gothic fiction, such as mysterious inheritance, hidden identities, lost wills, family secrets, inherited curses, incest, and illegitimacy, require a world in which social mobility takes place through family identity and marriage rather than individual worth.
                   
Although the gothic novel as a form is capable of containing and exploring sensitive and sophisticated questions in fiction, in its popular version version it has been both formulaic and predictable. The gothic novel over two centuries reaffirms the romantic belief in love as the cure for and defense against devil. In its earliest British form, as written by Horrace Walpole, the gothic novel was synonymous with supernatural horror; but within a few years, in the works of Ann Radcliffe and Clara M. Reeve, the gothic took on more sentimental and romantic characteristics. The gothic novel may have been submerged or out of vogue during some periods, but it was never entirely absent from the literary scene.
                  
Beyond the problem of definition, another impediment to the serious study of gothic fiction is that the audience for the form has been primarily female, relative inarticulate, and lacking in access to the outlets for critical expression. Gothic influenced detective fiction, science fiction, and the Western. Critics of gothic novels traditionally have divided them into several categories: sentimental-gothic, terror-gothic, historical-gothic, and some subcategories of lesser significance. Sentimental-gothic novels emphasize the love story and use supernatural terrors with rational explanations. The primary writer of this type in Britain was Radcliffe, and her work was most influential upon American fiction. Terror-gothic novels emphasize the supernatural, often using depraved monks or nuns as villains. Historical-gothic novels were much more influential in America. Such works romanticized the past, usually with anachronistic elements, exploiting the exocitism of a remote time to heighten the atmosphere of terror.

Gothic novels again attracted the attention of publishers early in the 1960s. There were some contemporary gothic novels. These contemporary gothic novels can also be divided into categories. Some are gothics with contemporary settings in which the strange and terrfying events come from the exotic nature of the environment; an example is Phyllis Whitney’s Black Amber (1964), which takes place in Turkey. Others are classic gothic stories set in the past in which a young woman (governess, bride) endures the terrors of an old house with ancient legend, superstitions, and family secrets; an example is Anya Seton’s Dragonwyck (1944). Recently, a new type of fiction related to the gothic has been gaining popularity, overshadowing, and outselling the work of Whitney and Seton.

It is clear that there is much more research and study to be done on gothic novels. Only the gothic novel for women has been neglected, and it’s clearly deserving of the same analytic treatment in its own right.
                  

Let me go home....

3/08/2011 12:32:00 AM 1 Comments A+ a-


I walked along this path alone, under the rain of the dark clouds…I was alone with the umbrella in my left hand…I couldn’t wait till the rain stopped, so I just walk away till I reached home…
But it was downpour…many people run and run seeking place for them to take shelter, but I still walked and walked….
I didn’t care what would happen to me…I knew my blouse was wet like it was drowned to the river, but I didn’t really care….
I could feel the cold stabbed to my skin…
But what I wanted now was just getting home soon…
I saw them at the warm café laughing and drinking a cup of coffee with their friends…Made me want to feel the warm atmosphere like them…
But I remembered myself; I just wanted to go home….
In front of me there was just a wet muddy road, my fabric shoes was like an odd muddy trash….
I tried to run and run to reach home soon…Splashed the water that I stepped into…
I saw that warm light in front of my eyes…It was my home…my beloved home…
I knocked the door at the moment…Smiling beautiful face accosted me suddenly…
This I was belong to…to the place I belong...



Live Through the Fantasy

2/20/2011 04:23:00 AM 0 Comments A+ a-


    Every person should have a fantasy whether when they were children or adult. I have read in book Children’s Literature by Charlotte S. Huck, it tells that every child has own imagination about something. Every child has own fantasy world. It makes me interested in fantasy. For me, fantasy is something amazing in our life, we can imagine that maybe other never think about. However, every person has own fantasy and imagination because they have thoughts and ideas. Whether it bad or good, beautiful or horrific, real or unreal, it doesn’t matter, because they have a gift to live through fantasy.
    I thank that God gives me that amazing thing. Sometimes, I feel like I’m living in my fantasy world when I’m alone. I’m having fun with my own stories that I’ve made by myself and it seems that it is real. Sometimes in night, I should sleep until the midnight just to make my fantasy story. I don’t know why I just want to make my story real in my life.
In my fantasy, I make some characters that I want. I have main character and I make it like my artist in my scenario movie. I have a female character; she is an actress in my fantasy. However, she has the same historical background as me. The difference with me is the characteristics I’ve made for her. She is calm, silent, hopeless romantic, soft, and modest. I don’t know why I make her to be like that, maybe indirectly I want to like her. She is just innocent girl who get adventure to find the true love. She is going around the world since she is an actress. She meets many people and of course, boys. Well, these just an introduction about my main character.
Something that I’m curious about myself is why I want her to be real. In my imagination, I think about what her face should be, what the characteristic should be, who is the last love during her searching for true love, what songs that appropriate with her story, what illustration that appropriate with her. The most difficult is when I try to find what face should be compatible with her characteristics,. Well, I’ve imagined her face and body. I imagine her has a pretty cute face and ideal girl body. It seems like a perfect girl, but I’m just fine with that, well it’s all up to me, right? Then I find many pictures of beautiful girl which have the same description as my imagination of what her face. She is an Asian girl, but not Indonesian, and it’s not a real picture, those girl pictures are just art paintings, so those make my character is not real, just fantasy.
To make her more real to me, I make a facebook and blogger account for her. Well, it may just a false account, but I’m happy with that. In her blogger, I publish her own stories, how she experience when she met with her first boyfriend in Den Haag, Holland. Well, I think the story is very simple, because I make it simple. So, I make her blogger’s name to be The Adventures of Love.
Then, every time I make story for her, I always listen to the music that is compatible with her adventure. There are many songs that accompany me while I am writing her story, especially from Taylor Swift. Swift’s song, actually, like about what girl dreams for love. So I think it would be very nice if when we read my character’s story, we also listen to Swift’s songs. Actually, Swift’s song is kind of country-pop genre, so I think it’s very romantic and fun. I love the sound of guitar while join with the voice of Taylor Swift. There are also other songs from Craig David, David Archuleta, TVXQ, Super Junior, SHINee, and many more that nice to listen.
For the other characters, especially the boys, I imagine some boys that I like. They are actually popular figures in their own world. There are an actor, rider, football player, dancer, and singer. I also make their own characteristics and names which are actually little bit like their names but I change their last name.
For the story itself, I have made it in three chapters. I’ve not finished yet, because it is a long long story of life. I just make some short stories about the big events that happen. So, the first chapter will be about her first boyfriend and her, how they play together in the same movies as a couple. I also make the stories for the movies they play. I have planned; she will have 9 roles in 9 movies which in her 5 movies she will play with her first boyfriend. In the story of her life, she will break up with her first boyfriend who has engaged with her. Then she will back off from her career as an actress to become a writer, until she will find another boy, a football player. Honestly, their relationships also break up because of misunderstanding. Finally, she finds her soul-mate in Switzerland, the place where she always feels comfortable. He is a Korean artist, and she play Korean drama movie with him. Last, they get married and live in Japan until they get child, they decide to move to Indonesia.
In this story, there are many still conflicts even when she gets married. The conflict between her and her football player boyfriend is not finished yet. Her ex-boyfriend still loves her so much, but he is a broad minded and open hearted, so he could accept that marriage.
I think the long narrative is when she lives in London as a writer and with her football player boyfriend. I think the chapter 2 is the most exciting part where there are many conflicts happen and also happy story between the lover couple. They have the same ages so I think while a lover couple in the same ages there will be many conflicts and kind of difficulty of self-controlling like egoist.
In the story, I choose some places that she visits like Holland (the first place she visits), England, US, Scotland, Wales, Switzerland, France, Spain, Korea, and Japan.
I think it’s interesting and fun to have imaginary life. It’s like the other side of me that can never be seen except myself.  So, I think everybody also has own world whether it’s real or not. Something I always remember, I live in real world so I couldn’t get too far to enter the whole fantasy, although actually it’s fun to be here. I feel I just like Alice who finds Wonderland through the hole under the tree. Well, I also should be aware, because I’m not dreaming everyday in my life; I should catch my real dreams in my real life. So, I always say to myself, ‘Wake Up! Wake Up!’ to remind me that I’m not in fantasy.
Well, that's just my own fantasy. How about you?