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Okay, maybe this is my first time to write (read:tell) something actually I never blow it up directly. Sometime, I just use some metaphors, or analogy, or symbol when I speak about this. Because, maybe I'm very sensitive and too shy, so I might be afraid of something that will happen. However, I can't deny from it, I just want to write it down, and everything's done. Then I hope, I feel better after this.
So, what am I going to discuss? No, actually I won't discuss it because I'm the one who feel it, and I just want to write about what I feel. Ehemm....!
Someone said that it is an 'annual mourning', maybe it's often happened to that one. But I just feel it currently or maybe for a couple past few months, actually since I was graduated from my university. And it makes me suffered. But I thank Allah, it makes me closer to Him.
It is not easy way I could pass. There are more feelings I can feel in every single time: nervous, curious, anxious, worried, hopeful, and so many things I can feel. Maybe, hope you guys guess it, got it?!
Well, everybody I'm sure, they feel it too. But for me, I'm different. It's not easy for me. I just hope that this will be fine after what I've done a past few days and the next days I don't know what I should do. I hope the best will be mine, although I know I always wish for that one, the glowing star in the sky which bravely standing beautifully with its light. Huff! However, maybe I never have that one, but there are many things I can expect: maybe the butterfly which is flying around the flower, or the moon which is shining in the lovely night, or maybe the sun which hides behind the clouds. Ah, I just don't know, because this is a mystery of my destiny. I just want to believe Him. Only Him I should believe.

*Sigh! What actually I am talking about?! I don't know. :|

Being Natural, Being Romantic

Hwaaah, rasanya udah lama banget gak bikin tulisan di blog, gak juga kali ya, hehe...

Well, sore ini ternyata langit mendung dan akhirnya turun hujan. Hujan itu indah, hujan itu romantis. Gimana gak romantis coba? Kalau kita lihat pepohonan semuanya jadi terlihat segar dan hijau, dedaunan merunduk malu karena kebasahan, genangan air berusaha menangkap peri-peri kecil yang turun dari langit, dan mereka berlompatan riang gembira menyambut hujan, apalagi kalau hujan di pegunungan dan tertutupi oleh kabut tipis, owww! that's so.... Eits tunggu dulu!
Romantis yang aku maksud adalah romantis versi kakek William Wordsworth. Mungkin bagi yang tahu, Wordsworth hidup sekitar abad ke-18 dan 19 dimana era ketika ia hidup dinamakan zaman Romantis (ciyeee :p) dan dia menjadi salah satu pelopor era Romantis bersama rekannya Samuel Taylor Coleridge, setelah membuat kumpulan puisi Lyrical Ballads yang dipublikasikan pada tahun 1798.
Terus, romantis menurut versi mereka gimana sih?
Romantisisme adalah aliran yang lebih mengutamakan perasaan emosional, kemurnian, keoriginalitasan, natural, dan apa adanya. Romantisisme terwujud dalam karya sastra, seni, dan puisi. Wordsworth yang tinggal di pedesaan lebih banyak membuat puisi yang berkaitan dengan alam atau perasaannya tentang nature. Inilah yang disebut dengan Romantis.
Dibawah ini adalah satu puisi Wordsworth yang aku suka, I wandered lonely as a cloud

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

That's so romantic, right?! Bisa kelihatan kan sisi romantisnya Wordsworth? Dia menggunakan banyak hal yang berkaitan dengan alam atau nature, so natural and back to nature. Mungkin, aku yang seorang penulis puisi juga, gaya berpuisiku sedikit terpengaruh oleh aliran ini. Aku sering sekali menggunakan nature sebagai objek puisi untuk mewakili perasaanku. Alam selalu mewakili setiap perasaan manusia atau sebaliknya, sehingga kita bisa membuat analogi satu sama lain.  Ya, being natural, being so romantic.

Alam memang begitu indah, dan tentunya Pencipta dibalik itu semua lebih indah dibandingkan yang lain. Bagiku dengan mentadaburi alam, semakin besar cinta dan rasa syukurku pada-Nya. Apalagi jika alam ini lengkap dengan aturan-Nya, sudah pasti kehidupan ini akan sempurna karena bernaung dalam ridho-Nya.

raining is always beautiful to me

dan paling enak lagi sambil dengerin instrumental music box kayak ini nih, enjoy your time ^_^

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star

Glowing in the sky

Let it shines

Although the darkness' still covering

Let me see your sparkle

And make my wish flies to you

High upon the sky

But please,

don't ever let me fall

to crash into the ground

Allow me to steal your beauty

and keep your light inside my dark soul

Till you shine with your brightest light

Warm the coldness of my heart

And melt down the ice of my soul

Oh, twinkle twinkle little star

Please,

Would you give me your shine?

Would you keep shining on me?

and accompany the loneliness of myself,

accompany me to walk along the road of this life

till the end of time

Hey, twinkle twinkle little star,

I just want to ask you

where are you now?

the brightest one and the most beautiful one,

Although I know

that you're still standing above the sky

and do waiting for our meeting

Please, keep shining on me

The 6th Song: Waiting for a Star

Yeah, this is my 6th song I made. I don't know actually what this song tells about, because I think it's just full of metaphors. Maybe the lyric is just something I want like my dreams I want to get. Firstly, and just like my other songs, I found nice chord while I was playing the guitar and I didn't plan to make a new song, but finally i found the chord and it was nice, I think, so I created the lyric. The genre of the song may be just lil bit country and gothic, maybe because I was inspired by The Civil Wars songs.
Here you may know the lyric below, check this out ;)

Waiting for a Star

Uhh...uhh..uh...
I'm standing here to watch it all night
Uhh...uh..uhh..
A star is glowing and I start to hide
Uh...uhh..uh...
Still I keep stealing to look up the sky
Uhh...uh..uh...
But I find that now it is run and hide

Reff:
The night, I know it is so dark
It makes me blind to see all the things I find
The star is standing above the sky
But why it's just covered and now it hides
I wish the star will give shiny light
and waiting here till the sun comes to the sky
Just waiting here until you will come around

Uhh...uh..uhh...
I know it's hard to reach but I can't run
Uhh...uhh..uh...
And it keeps sparkling to me it's a sign
Uhh...uh...uhh..
But it's still shy to show its shiny light
Uhhh...uhh..uh..
I promise to watch and catch its glow

Back to Reff.

Breakpart:
Although it's too far for I can get it
And I know I'm in stranger side
I'm sure still have a chance to make it
Mine......

I'm waiting here until you'll come around

Walking in the Sky

One day,

I saw a boy; he was standing there, alone…

But then, he drew something with hand

Neither pencil nor crayon

He drew something in the air

With his mind pen

His hand moved and moved higher

I thought that he was crazy…

Then, he smiled like he saw something in his eyes

His hand still moved till he couldn’t reach anymore

But then he smiled again

He started to step

Like he was stepping on the ladder

An imaginative ladder

But I couldn’t see that ladder…

Then, I saw his feet didn’t step on the ground anymore

He stepped up, higher and higher…

I saw him amazingly,

I rubbed my eyes; saw something that I never imagined

It was like a dream, I kept watching on him

He kept walking and he kept drawing more staircases

Where he was stepping into

The highest of the sky

I was still looking at him; he was so small far from my sight

He stepped on the clouds, walking

Now he was running without hesitate

Felt there was nothing only him

I could hear his bright laugh

Now, I was tried to draw

Drew something that my eyes can’t see

But beyond my eyes can see

My imaginative ladder

Then I could reach my dream

Into the highest sky of my imagination

*was created in 2008

Butterfly

hey butterfly,

why do you keep flying around my head?

do you wish for I catch?

or let you free?

No, I never won't trap you

so, I let you free 

just like what you've been

The Violet Hour

Just listen to this video song, hmm....I love The Civil Wars

  "A little thing crosses my mind

        just like a butterfly"

INTRO

Last!!! Akhirnya!!! My first blog is welcomed again. Setelah selama 1 tahun tidak disentuh, akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk mendesain ulang kembali dan memakainya kembali. Cukup sulit untuk mendesain templatenya, tapi karena aku cinta fantasy, akhirnya aku pilih tema fantasy yang colourful di blog pertamaku ini. Lumayan juga sih. Meskipun dalem-dalemnya belum ada berita atau cerita yang up to date, tapi semoga blog ini bisa bermanfaat bagi orang banyak.

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