Portal: An Entrance to a New World

An entrance to a world that man has never met

Garnished in utter peace, endless shapes of beauty

Infinite suffering ending as I proceed

Fleeing through the portal into the tranquil scenes

Behind me lies the world, dismal and unrestrained

Encloaked despondency left behind forever

My senses disappear, all the pain and fear

Searing benevolence, perpetual, my hopes

Somehow I realize this can't last forever

The life I have left behind pours back into my soul

[Portal by Origin]

a door where you will entrance to a new world you've never met yet

wait for the whole stories, soon ;)

Cry with The Wind

Darkness covers the air

Feel the pain tightens heart beat

Cold dusk sticks under the skin

Froze every grains of blood

Stiff like an iron

Every move seems difficult to move

Wind blows spreading its chill

Wish it takes away the grief of my soul

Let the droplets of tears down

Freeze every treacle into crystal

Like the falling of the snow

So lonely

So cold

So painful

Will you keep me trapped into this? Or let me die?

No choice I could choose

Let me cry with the wind

Brought every breath into deepest gloom

With the loneliness of self

Walking in the Sky

One day,

I saw a boy; he was standing there, alone…

But then, he drew something with hand

Neither pencil nor crayon

He drew something in the air

With his mind pen

His hand moved and moved higher

I thought that he was crazy…

Then, he smiled like he saw something in his eyes

His hand still moved till he couldn’t reach anymore

But then he smiled again

He started to step

Like he was stepping on the ladder

An imaginative ladder

But I couldn’t see that ladder…

Then, I saw his feet didn’t step on the ground anymore

He stepped up, higher and higher…

I saw him amazingly,

I rubbed my eyes; saw something that I never imagined

It was like a dream, I kept watching on him

He kept walking and he kept drawing more staircases

Where he was stepping into

The highest of the sky

I was still looking at him; he was so small far from my sight

He stepped on the clouds, walking

Now he was running without hesitate

Felt there was nothing only him

I could hear his bright laugh

Now, I was tried to draw

Drew something that my eyes can’t see

But beyond my eyes can see

My imaginative ladder

Then I could reach my dream

Into the highest sky of my imagination

*was created in 2008

My Writing Project Challenge

          I have a novel project about the complicated life of a young man. However, I find it difficult to make its plot and characters. I’ll keep trying to find those all through my life and its relation. But  since I will use a young man as its main character, I’ll find someone’s characteristic  through someone. Who is he? I don’t know, maybe I will make a mix characteristic through some people I know. It will be fun. But, how do I know? Well, if I do not know their characteristics, but we still may find someone’s character through their writings. I also don’t know whose writing I will learn. But, I’ll make my character like to be alive in the story. So I need to find it out.

I have an obsession to be a professional writer and I should have capability to write many kinds of writing. Although I know I have more interest in writing fictional one. I also should learn how to make one’s character. I have written some stories, I also have tried to make both men and women characters, young and adult characters, and how they use their language in different age. Yet still I am an amateur writer. So I need to learn it. I should know many people’s characteristics so through them, I can create many characters I want. I also should read more books to learn writers’ characters, because I believe we can find it through their writings as I’ve told before.

I wish this my novel project will be published at the end of the year. And it's a big challenge for me. So, just wait it! I will make a boom for you all! ;)

what does actually I read?

My 5th Song: Stranger

My wish to make a new song has been done! Yeah, I did it one more still with music genre of alternative rock (maybe, hehe) and pop-country. This is my fifth song, I just needed for a few hours to make it finished also with the lyric. It is another counsel lyric after 'The Way', to make me strong. So just check the lyric out, below:

Stranger

Sometime you maybe feel so afraid

Or maybe, you also have your own fear

But don’t ever take your step back

Cause it’s your path to go ahead

Put all of your strength to face your faith

And throw out your fear behind your courage

No one will stop from what you’ve done

Everything’s gonna be okay

Reff:

Choose your life and where you’ll go

Cause everything always has end to come

And find for yours, a nice place one

It’s a place where you belong

Strengthen yourself, make you ready

What all will happen, will shake yourself

Cause it’s not the easy way

You will step upon the truth

Somehow, Sometime you will be a stranger

But it will make you proud of yourself

Cause you think, you’re different

From what anyone has become

Don’t ever worry all the things you’ll face

If you really want it for your happiness

Accept the truth, and life goes on

It will walk as long as should be

Breaking Part:

One day you will feel the greatest thing of all

And nobody let you fall….

You’ll be a stranger

Oh…oh…

You’re different…

but you're special

Stranger, stranger, stranger…

Oh…oh…

In the time when you will survive

Ask for your forgiveness in the past

Wash away all your fault

And your dream will be complete

Kiroro - Mirae

Such a nice song to listen Kiroro - Mirae in the morning. Actually I have been listening to this song since I was in elementary school. Yea, this song was actually published in 1998, it means that I still was in the 4th grade of elementary school! Since my parents is working for Japanese Department in the university I studied,  I began to listen many Japanese song, although I don't really impress with. However, in my younger age, I used to listen to many kinds of Japanese songs, which now are difficult to find because I never know the song's titles. Kiroro was the one I knew, with their song Mirae, and it is a very nice song. You should listen to this song!

Just listen to the original singer, she really has a beautiful voice :')
it is an old video, haha

or maybe you also want to hear only the piano instrument, so beautiful, hmm....

And you may read the lyric and also the translation here, it is an awesome lyric :)

Japanese lyric

hora ashimoto wo mitegoran
kore ga anata no ayumu michi
hora mae wo mitegoran
are ga anata no mirai

haha ga kureta
takusan no yasashisa
ai wo idaite ayume to kurikaeshita
ano toki wa mada osanakute
imi nado shiranai
sonna watashi no te wo nigiri
issho ni ayundekita

yume wa itsumo
sora takaku aru kara
todokanakute kowai ne
dakedo oitsuzukeru no

jibun no sutoori dakara koso
akirametakunai
fuan ni naru to te wo nigiri
issho ni ayundekita

sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu
hora ashimoto wo mitegoran
kore ga anata no ayumu michi
hora mae wo mitegoran
are ga anata no mirai

sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu
hora ashimoto wo mitegoran
kore ga anata no ayumu michi
hora mae wo mitegoran
are ga anata no mirai

hora ashimoto wo mitegoran
kore ga anata no ayumu michi
hora mae wo mitegoran
are ga anata no mirai

mirai e mukatte
yukkuri to aruite yukoo 

This is the translation, English version:

look at your feet and see
this is the path you walk
look in front of you and see
that is your future

Mother has given me a lot of kindness
"Embrace love and walk" she repeated
that time when I was childish and didn’t understand her meaning
she held my hand
together, walking we came.

dreams are always from high in the sky
it is scary that we might not reach them but continue to try
for this reason I won’t abandon my story
when I became anxious she held my hand
together, walking we came.

that kindness was occasionally unpleasant
when I was away from mother I couldn’t obey

look at your feet and see
this is the path you walk
look in front of you and see
that is your future

that kindness was occasionally unpleasant
when I was away from mother I couldn’t obey

look at your feet and see
this is the path you walk
look in front of you and see
that is your future

look at your feet and see
this is the path you walk
look in front of you and see
that is your future

slowly towards the future let’s walk

Happy listening :)

Confusion

Huff...
I couldn't speak right now, if I talk about it. There are so many question in my mind whether about me, you, us, or them! But I can only ask to myself without answering it or myself can't answer it. Aargh! Feels like I want to scream in somewhere cold, lonely, and peace. But I can't find it! or actually I can't go there! I can't lie about this writing. My heart is soooo complicated thinking about me, you, us, and them!

The most disturbing question is why should I be like this? and why should I put myself in this hard, unbelievable, confusing, and difficult situation? is it my destiny to be like this? oh gosh!!! and what should I do now? It's unbelievable! I do something that others maybe rarely do. So, I doubt about it.

What am I talking about, actually? I don't know!
Should I forget about it? or should I think that it never actually happens in my life?
so hard to answer it!

but I'll do my best to get the best from Him!
yeah...although I'm worried about it.

Please, save me from what I've done!
I hope doing the right thing. But please, save me!